What a Marathon

What a crazy last few days! Our internet was hit and miss at best so here I sit during my first few quiet moments and think, where do I even begin?
Tuesday- We met Eli and his foster mother at the agency. It was amazing to walk into the room and see his foster mother and him. There he was real and looking wonderful. I had my expectations in check and he did let me interact with him a bit and even hold him for a moment to show him a toy. He is very busy and into everything! I think what amazed me most was the kindness of his "umma" as she smiled and told us all about him. She wanted to know why Hannah was not there and longed to meet her. She also blessed us with so many beautiful gifts since he was her first and would be her last. I think the letting go was hard for all of her family! Not all families have this and we did not expect it, it was a blessing from a woman who loved him so much. We said good-bye and spent the afternoon processing at the Seoul North Tower.
Wednesday- "Gotcha Day" We were able to take Eli home to the hotel because the agency was to be closed the next 3 days for Lunar New Year (were not informed by our specialist oops!). This was hard to see as his "umma" processed her good-bye and shared her heart with us. As we walked to the car to leave, she bravely carried him, looked me in the eye and held my hand. We just looked at each other and I knew she was letting go and giving him over to my care. She told him to go to his "umma", kissed him and gave him to me. Eli did not express anything, he was really strong and confused. At the hotel he would cry for her every 45 minutes or so and I would hold him and share his sorrow. Here he was, in my arms forever. We just watched him and were comforted by the details his foster mother gave us of all his likes and dislikes. He is crazy for bath time and I had to keep him from diving into the bathtub every time we had the door open.
Thursday-Eli attached to daddy...so since that day on he is not sure about me and always asks for his "abba." He loved his foster dad so we think that is the connection. Poor John, he works so hard. He has had to change diapers and everything else! I am in the support position and not sure how I like this place. I am just working to be patient and take the smiles and the few cuddles I can get. He has the cutest smile and I just cannot help but kiss his head and hold him when he lets me (when he is eating)!
Friday- Heading home! Eli had hives the first day we picked him up and as of Friday we ran out of medicine. So we scrambled through the airport for medicine and waited patiently in the play area to head out! I will confess I was able to sleep a bit more than daddy since whenever Eli could not see John he cried. The Korea air flight attendants were amazing and lovely though I got a bit frustrated when they wanted to carry him. How do you say no? But yea for attachment to dad, Eli wanted to come back quickly to daddy and did not like being carried by others. I keep reminding myself attaching is safe for him and healthy! Friday afternoon he met sister, was a bit overwhelmed by everything and started wheezing. So off to the doctor! Not a fan of the car seat but survived. Welcome to the nebulizer! I am so glad we have been through it all with Hannah! This is why he came home, so we could direct his care and know he is getting all he needs.
Saturday- breathing sounds better and he has let me do a little for him. Dad left for a couple of errands to give us some time to trust. He cried, played, cried, and he fell asleep in my arms. So now he sleeps and I am thankful to have him. Love being his mom and we have a lifetime to fall in love. As John said, he will soon learn mom is the more reliable one ha ha!
Sorry for the long update, just needed to process and share life today. He is precious and such a gift.