My Son

I cannot explain the excitement and anticipation I feel today! As many know, yesterday we accepted a referral for our son. We received "the call" a week ago. It was 4:45 and John was finishing up at work. Our son (love saying that)was born at 27 weeks, but was developing very well considering. I tried to hold my heart back because we needed to submit our paperwork to the specialists and make sure there were not further concerns. However, all I could think is "he's the one." The problem is that fear tends to set in whether we want it to or not. 27 weeks is SO early, he was 2.3lbs and it broke my heart and scared to me think of all he had been through without me there to help. But God is good, on Sunday afternoon, John told me he felt we needed to say "yes." Since then I have felt peace because no matter what I am his mom.
He is so beautiful and I cannot wait to meet him, to know him, and be able to love him for the rest of his life and mine. Today I have 2 kids. A three year old and a beautiful 8 month old. I have prayed for this day and cannot believe it is here. A friend of mine prayed over the phone for peace regarding our acceptance of the referral and for our son. She thanked God because our son was no longer an orphan. I am so thankful to have Christ in my life, to know that even from this distance I can love my son and Christ will pour that upon him and begin knitting our hearts together.
My quiet time yesterday was in the book of Ruth. I am going through the Ruth study by Kelly Minter with some awesome women. In yesterday's study, we focused on the passage that says "wherever you go I will go, your people will be my people and your God my God." How fitting for our first day as a family. My people (family, friends, church) will be his, his Korean heritage will become part of me, and my God will be his God.